December 2009
29 posts
LOL somehow I wrote a lot for you, because while writing it I wanted you to read it. But now I’m not so sure if I could actually send it to you; you just don’t seem to be that person I want to read it anymore. Or maybe it’s just my sensitivity to useless things that never existed. We both feared that it would come true but now that it’s came true it doesn’t seem so...
1:09AM
Yeah well she said, “It’s three AM; I must be lonely.”
I’m feeling restless. Things are moving so fast that by the time I learn to accept a certain reality it’s already too late for emotions. I didn’t get over the fact that we are separated now; I hadn’t even grasped it yet. I keep doing rash things day after day it’s getting boring and tiring...
I'm thinking about getting a cat.
Why do you like cats? They're disloyal.
“目が 覚めるその度
君がいる その事を確かめる
あの頃の僕には 言えなかった
言葉があふれて 痛いよ
なぜ 僕を許すの？
何度も 君を涙に沈めたのに...”
– THSK, One
“I finally found that one thing I can keep doing for life.
(LANGUAGE)”
OMG I’m sick. You know what’s sick? Sick! Sick of you and you and you and you HELLLLLLL how did I know you for so long and not get sick before I really don’t know FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUU you are so fucking predictable you SICKO
It's already december
It may sound weird but today is the first day of the entire holiday where I have no place that I must go. It’s the first day I have some time to myself. Kinda makes me recollect how I’ve neglected my alone time. Somehow it’s like that chinese comprehension we did on the BSP trip, I always keep myself busy because I don’t want to feel lonely. Shows how badly desperate I was....
